Saturday, January 26, 2013

THE CREEPER

It all my years going to an LDS singles ward there always seemed to be that one guy. You know the one who was not only little weird but down right CREEPY??? He seemed to follow you in one form or another to each ward you attended. He was in almost every ward I attended.

Well when I graduated myself from the singles ward and into the family ward I'm not gonna lie it was a hard transition. But one thought I had, "Hey at least there won't be anymore creepy men following me around!" Little did I know not only would I be wrong but DEAD WRONG!!!!!

Now some people have varying opinions on what defines a creeper. What is creepy to some may not be to others. Some people take it as they are just extra friendly. So here are my thoughts as to why the creeper in my ward is a creeper:

1. When you begin to realize that eyes are on you and you have felt that for a few months and you finally venture your gaze to see if you are right or wrong and you totally catch the dude STARING at you! So then you start playing musical chairs around the chapel hoping you are not in the line of his view and the whole time wishing you could look in him the eye with this expression:
That is how I would define a CREEPER!

2. When he stops you outside and randomly starts talking to you about nonsense and tells you that he has increased his exercising because it has been revealed to him that he will be called on a mission to the mountains before long and knows he will be taking a wife with him. Ok, umm random and weird. THEN a few months later on another time he corners you outside and you can't break away he says, "Sure is a beautiful day outside. Nice enough day to go fishing. By the way do you like fishing?" Me: "uhhh ya its ok, I've been a few times." Him: "Really ? Would you go up to the mountains with me and go fishing? There are some beautiful hidden lakes up there that not many people know about" Me thinking: HECK NO!!!!! Me saying: "Well, I'm pretty busy person sorry I don't have much time for that kind of stuff." His response: "Well, dear we just need to change that now don't we? We need to free you up some time" Umm............ Can you say CREEPER????

3. When you are purposely talking to someone else to avoid the dude and he purposely interrupts your conversation so he can start talking to you. So now you walk all the way around the church to avoid him, you even stand in the bathroom even for 15 minutes hoping to avoid contact, or you hide in a room and spend the entire 2nd hour of church prepping the room for your 3rd hour lesson cause you know if you venture out he will find you. Or you now use your phone or electronic devise as an excuse to make you look busy so you don't have to talk to him, and you now feel this is how you approach every hallway at church:
that's what I call a CREEPER!!!!

4. When he does stop you at church and says, "So dear I just have to ask you a question, why is pretty young thing like you in our ward?" Ummm ...... how are you suppose to respond to that? I say with a forced laugh oh well you know I graduated myself from the singles ward so its automatically the next step. And he responds, "Well you are just so pretty and look so young that I'm just shocked you are in our ward. How old are you? Better yet dear why don't you guess my age?' WHAT THE WHAT???? We are not at the fair dude where you play the guessing game AND note to the wise, you NEVER converse with a woman about age!
Umm..... Can I say CREEPER!!!
 
 
5. The fact the dude calls  you dear in the first place is just not right, then you find out that he has made comments that he knows God will grant him a marriage in the next 5 years is just a little out there, then he tells you often "ever since I found out about your surgery I pray for your well being" just leaves an uneasy feeling if you know what I mean. Now some may argue, hes just being NICE! Well, with all the other incidences, I just can't see it as nice, I see it as CREEPY!!!
 
6. And the ultimate reason why I think he is a creeper: When he stops in the hallway when you are getting something out of a closet and are clearly busy and he wants to make small talk about the weather and how happy he is to see that you are not wearing a surgical shoe any more then he says, "So I thought you lived by yourself, but I often see another female coming out of your apartment. Did you get a roommate?" WHAT THE WHAT???!!!!!????? Talk about a total freak out feeling now, knowing the dude WATCHES WHO COMES IN AND OUT OF MY HOUSE!!!!!!
Who does that? Well, I'll tell ya who does: A CREEPER!!!!

No wonder I had a nightmare the other night that someone broke into my house and was attacking me. No wonder I woke up in a cold sweat, heart pounding and wishing more then anything at that moment that a man was sleeping next to me in bed and how thankful I am it was just a nightmare and that I rarely ever feel scared being in my own place.

But I will say, even thou I now am the queen of musical chairs at church, and can stealth walk thru the hallways lol I am to the point that I think I will start paying men to be my boyfriend at least during church anyways haha or pay them to whisk me away anytime the creeper dude starts talking to me!

Any men out there needing extra money? Or how about a weekly supply of a plate of cookies? Just Sayin! :)


Monday, January 21, 2013

Sweet Hour of Prayer

Sweet hour of Prayer! What does that mean exactly? Does it mean praying for an whole hour? Does it mean doing it publicly or quietly? Does it mean all answers will be answered immediately? I think it means having a conversation with your Father in Heaven then having Faith that he will answer what he will on his time frame.

The last couple of weeks I have focused more intently on prayers. Just not prayers but sincere prayers. I have a friend who teases (not in a bad way tho) how much I talk to God. Over the years he has become a true friend and I love to tell him everything. But recently I have wanted some changes in my life and I have spent hours and days pleading. Those specifics will come possibly in a future blog post but I have also needed his help recently to say the things he would have me say. To recognize the Spirit and act upon it when I felt it.

Two weeks ago I felt impressed to teach on the love of our Father in Heaven. I played the song, what Heaven Sees In You and asked the class if they see what heaven sees in them. I got quietness so  I admitted that I struggle at times to see what Heaven sees in me. I have a hard time seeing that God sees me as this amazing person with so much potential, but one way I have come to see better is thru prayer. I love prayer.

I have seen God's hand in my life to pull me thru some of the hardest moments of my life. I have felt his love at times in my life when all I could do was cry and cry and cry some more. I have felt his hand soften anger when it seemed only anger consumed my heart. I have felt him calm my fears when I didn't think I could accomplish tasks that seemed unattainable then accomplished them.

I have also learned that with prayer I have to come to accept his will and I also have to act on faith. After I taught that lesson I was struggling with two recent situations. Coming to accept a person for who they are even tho their actions bother me and continue to show love towards them and asking God for confirmation that a certain person would fulfill an assignment appropriately. On the latter I kept asking God if this is the person he wanted, if he thought this person was the best fit. I was feeling nothing. So even tho I had a great day teaching on prayer, I went to bed frustrated and woke up frustrated.

I tend to be a slow learner at times and while in the car heading to work I had another conversation with God and this time I remembered what I taught the day before and that there are different ways to speak with God. So I changed my prayer and said, "God I choose this person to fulfill this assignment. This is the person I think will do a great job." After I said that I asked what he thought of my decision and I was filled with so much peace. Some times with prayer it takes a leap of faith. Make a decision, leap of faith and go forward with it. With the other situation each time I interact with this certain person my heart is softening.

We need to believe that God will answer our prayers. We can't always ask with doubt always in our minds. Yesterday I had to teach on two different assignments. Again I prayed for guidance and felt impressed in one assignment to speak on the importance of Christ in our live and how we can gain a testimony of his influence. I prayed all morning that everyone involved in both events yesterday would feel the Spirit and be led by it. During the first assignment I had assigned scriptures and we read the first one and I asked if anyone could relate to that personally. One person spoke of a very personal story in their life recently. After they finished I had the strongest impression share your scripture and the video now. I thought but I hadn't finished the scriptures or explained why I chose those particular scriptures but I acted upon it. Read my scripture then showed the video how a young man came to know of the importance of Christ in his life then  after the video another person shared their testimony how they too came to know of the importance of the Savior in their life and how life events had led them to the spot where they are now. The Spirit was in that room yesterday and I can't deny it. It was so strong and powerful and yet so sweet at the same time. It was one of the most amazing experiences I have had in witnessing a prayer being answered by simply asking for the Spirit to be present.

An hour later I spoke on the importance of standing in holy places so one day we can ultimately stand in the holiest of places and that is the temple of God. I spoke of my mom and I driving to wrestling matches before sunrise on Saturdays to these little farm towns looking for the High School and it seemed if we found the church (LDS church) we could find the High School. So it became a little thing with the two of us and every Saturday I would tell my mom to look for the Church and we won't get lost. I told them last night if they would always look for the temple in their lives they won't get lost. I spoke of the importance of the temples and why certain temples have a special place in my heart. Everyone else who spoke last night was so in tuned with the Spirit and again the Spirit came and resided in that meeting. I can't deny that I felt its presence twice yesterday so very strong.

God hears our prayers. God wants to send answers. If we put forth faith and prepare in a manner pleasing unto him God will deliver, no matter how simple or complex the prayer is. God loves us individually and wants the best for his children here on earth. I love my conversations with him and I know he will guide me thru all things in my life. Some prayers have been answered immediately. Some prayers were answered later and some prayers have yet to be answered but God hears them all and is answering them as he sees fit.

If you had the impression to read this blog then I urge you to pray in all these things and develop that faith in God our Father in Heaven. Ask with all sincerity of heart whatever it is on your mind or in whatever you need help with. God is real and won't leave you comfortless. As you follow these things you as well will come to understand the true meaning of sweet hour of prayer!

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Don't Judge A Book By The Cover


I have been given a different perspective on recent tragedies.
Last night my friend from home told me about a incident by her home with a guy in a truck with a gun. Later the guy got out of his truck shooting at the SWAT team and they shot back and sadly killed him.

Not knowing any of the details I responded to my friend, "What's up with all the crazies in Pocatello? I leave and the town is now full of craziness!" Later the incident was posted and I read what exactly had been happening. The young man's girlfriend has been missing and he called the cops yesterday and said he has information. During the stand out yesterday I guess he confessed to killing her.

As I read the story the young man's name kept sticking out in my name. Finally the pieces of the puzzle in the back of head came together and I realized he was the little baby we would babysit for back in the day. The young man is now 23 so its been a long time. I remember more my mom babysitting his older brother then I do him. I was also went to school with his half-brother.

But just knowing that I know of the person really made me stop and think more deeply about this tragedy. I keep thinking about his family and the pain and suffering they must be going thru. Not only loosing a son and a brother but also realizing that he was the reason of the tragedy of the missing woman as well.

We tend to make comments like I did about people being "crazy" or thinking only one sided to a story or an incident but I guess because I know of his family instead of passing judgement on anything now I just feel sadness. Sadness that something in his life lead to this type of behavior and ending. Sadness for his family and the things they will go thru now as they come to cope with the situation and sadness that life seems so hard for people that things like this seem to be the only out for them.

I keep thinking about the saying "Don't judge a book by the cover" We don't know the battles that people fight daily or what leads them to act the way they do. People on both ends of this situation may or may not get the answers they are seeking but I hope they are able to find peace with it all eventually. That they can come to terms with the tragedy.

Above all it has given me a moment to reflect on how I should think about a tragedy. It's not just a tragedy on one end. But the incident on the whole is one encompassing tragedy on so many levels.