Saturday, November 10, 2012

Elections!!!!


Now I know some of you who are actually reading this is doing it solely upon looking at the title and wondering what in the world does Sarah have to say about elections let alone politics. Its so very true. I know nothing really about politics. In fact I could easily become famous off of the Jay Walks on the Jay Leno show as the dumbest girl on the street when it comes to politics. Sadly but truly just a few short months ago I didn't even know who the vice president of the United States was. Then after I was told who he was I forgot again until facebook was flooded with comments regarding the vice presidential debate.

This kind of stuff, politics has never interested me. You could say I tend to walk around in my uneducated bubble. But I love to listen to those who educate themselves and have discussions about political things. By "those" I mean friends and family because they usually still speak in terms that my little brain gets. But there are times when listening to them that just fascinates me especially when they are talking to someone who might disagree with them because every once in awhile I feel something inside of me and my own opinion begins to slowly form. I applaud those of you who are politically driven with tact and no what you are saying when you say it. In fact I have a friend who grew up with a "freedom room" in her house. Politics were discussed frequently in her home and she was encouraged regularly to obtain an educated opinion.

My opinion is not educated by all means but none the less its still an opinion. I will readily admit I did not watch the presidential debates nor did I watch the vice presidential debates. I quite frankly had no time and again it had a little bit to do with my uneducated thoughts on politics and wondering how do I know they are not jut saying that but truly mean it. I had a booth over the summer at the county fair for work and our booth was right next to a campaign booth. For four days straight I would listen to this person's campaign team tell the SAME speech time after time. I practically have it memorized word for word! At that moment I thought, do these people REALLY believe what they are saying or did they all memorize the same paragraph highlighting the opponents negatives and prep to only bash the opponent. Then the last night of the fair the man they were campaigning for actually showed up and introduced himself to me. I spoke with him for a moment and attempted to be open minded to his thoughts. When I attempted to explain my educational anti-tobacco booth to him he quickly responded he was well aware of tobacco and before I could get a 1/3 of my thoughts out he cut me off and told me all the great things he had accomplished in reducing smoke and second hand smoke in Utah. I felt somewhat defeated that he wouldn't listen to me, my thoughts. He quickly ended his lil speech to me and started to converse with everyone around my booth. When I was cleaning up I had to take massive buckets of water (from melted ice) outside and dump them. They were not light by any means and the other girl helping me was struggling with them as well. We had to go around this man who did not ask if he could help struggling women with massive buckets of water nor did he offer to hold the door nor did he even attempt to step aside out of our way. Instead he stood in my path and talked politics to other people who were running with him and watched me work. When he finally got ready to leave he shook my hand and thanked me for doing the Lord's work! My thought was "it would serve you well to do the same mister. Part of the Lord's work is helping your fellow man." I wondered after that moment how can you believe anything they say? How do you know its not just fluff words?

    
However, I happened to go to my parents home in the middle of the republican convention and after my mom and brother with shaking heads educated me on the guy running for vice president, the guy Mitt Romney beat out who then turned to support him, and yes educated me on the name of our vice president I decided to watch and just listen. I am proud to say when my brother asked who was speaking I could proudly say Clint Eastwood!(I know its sad, see I could totally be famous off Jay Leno  if he would have interviewed me)

As I then listened to Mitt Romney speak about the economy and the hardships and the financial struggles something resonated inside me like a little light bulb went on in my head like one of those ah-ha moments and I thought someone gets it! Someone understands how I am feeling! Someone realizes that I am putting in 50-60 hr weeks only getting paid for 40 working crazy hours and wondering if I will ever get a raise for all I am doing since I can't go get a second job with this schedule. I thought someone understands that even though I have a fairly decent job I can't seem to get ahead because even tho I am not getting raises to compensate it, the prices of food and gas continually increase and I am set back further and further financially and I am struggling to make ends meet.

I will be honest, I liked that he understood the financial burden, the financial crisis I am going thru. I will also be honest and admit this opinion may very well be biased because I did not listen to the democratic convention or any of the debates but my uneducated brain has seen with my educated eye the ever increasing prices on the things we need the most: Food and means for transportation! I resonated with him about getting more people to work, to be responsible for their actions. The past few years my eyes have been opened up more and more to people who expect handouts. Expect others to compensate them for the situation they are in. To expect freebies. Because I am single and have a relatively good job and because people don't know the financial struggle I deal with as well they automatically expect and or assume that I should freely give to those in need. You might go back to my previous comment about Christ and ask if I am not being Christ-like in my thoughts. But I believe Christ was willing to help those who helped themselves and demonstrated faith. I think the world today should apply the same principle. Don't go asking hard working individuals because they are Christians to pay or donate things to your pleasure without another thought and not doing something in return. Sometimes I feel the ones who work the hardest to make ends meet are the ones who are targeted the most. I feel if I am working my butt off to make ends meet then others if capable should as well.

I am eternally grateful and will forever be indebted to parents who have taught me the value of work. Not only work but hard work. Who instilled in me the desire to go out there and work for my dreams. To put myself in a situation where I could better myself. My move from Idaho was based on multiple reasons and multiple factors. But one of the reasons was to find better more secure employment for myself so I could take care of myself. I love the quote "Be the change you want to see" I am definitely not where I want to be and sure like most hard working people I wish I was better paid for all the hard actual work I do. But at the same time I am grateful I am working to better myself and my situation to be where I want to be some day. It may take longer then I want but with hard work and dedication I know I will get there.

I did think when Mitt Romney was offering solutions if they were real or if he was just saying it to sound good. But honestly I liked a lot of his suggestions and actually hoped he would be given the chance to really put them into practice. He worked hard, was smart in his business tactics and got himself to where he is today. I actually wanted to see if he was elected if Congress would go along with his thoughts and if he would teach us a thing or two about hard work, manning up to our responsibilities as individuals, and being dedicated to being more self reliant people.

As we know Mitt Romney did not win. For once in my life thanks to the little light that went on in my head I sat long and hard and wondered about my future. Am I going to continue to be in this financial despair? I am going to continue to struggle month after month to make ends meet while people all around me expect handouts and boldly exclaim I am poor you should give to my needs? I wondered a lot of things but just as quickly as those thoughts came so did the thoughts of Christ. We do not know how the future will be . We do not know how long the struggles will be present in our lives but I do know Christ has not forsaken me and understands the daily trials and struggles I am facing. I know Christ has engraved me in the palm of his hand and as long as I continue to do my part, as I continue to do my best to be self-reliant that God will compensate and I will be taken care of. I love the scripture that states I, the Lord am bound when ye do what I say; but when ye do not what I say, ye have no promise. I feel very uncertain of my future in multiple ways and on multiple levels but I know as long as I stick to the principles that Christ has set forth and govern my personal life in accordance to those principles then I can rest assured that one day things for me personally will be all ok.
















Now I know some of you may read this with very strong opinions, that's natural we are humans. But I wrote this on my blog where I can freely express my opinions. I am not looking for political debates. Some of you may think I am biased because I didn't even mention Obama! Its true this is a biased opinion. I did not listen to anything else besides to a guy running for office at the republican convention and we all should be impressed I did that. In the future I should educate myself better, form better educated opinions but for now these are the thoughts that I have going thru my head. Others of you who know my lack of political knowledge may wonder where this post may even came from. Maybe its because I woke up at 3:30am cold and hungry and yes still very much tired but not knowing at the moment how to solve my coldness, nor my hunger, nor my tiredness. Maybe this is all mumble jumble because I am sleep deprived, or maybe as my mom said earlier this week maybe I finally have woken up, realized I do have an opinion, and even more encouraged now to keep doing what I am doing to personally take care of myself so I can provide myself with a brighter future!


Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Mutual Weirdness = Love! What? Really?

So I have had this lil thought for awhile now with different experiences I have gone through of how does one actually fall in love? Is it really that simple? Does it take continual practice? How does one know its love and not lust? Or just not a desperate attempt for attention so you assume its love and in reality it just cause your lonely?
 
Dr. Seusss says love is:
I have pondered this thought and wonder what it takes to fall in mutual weirdness together. So far in life for me its lacking the mutual part. Me and mutual can't seem to connect. Lets take a look at various scenarios that to many of us go thru before mutual weirdness actually takes place.

You are into him but clearly he is not into you!
 
We are all familiar with this movie right? 

I didn't like this movie when I watched it the first time. Maybe it hit a little to close to home. But I was shopping with a friend once and decided to add a movie to my collection and she LOVED this movie and I thought really??? So I decided to give it another chance. I have actually watched it a few times and I still don't LOVE it. Great actors but maybe if I was in a committed relationship I would view it differently.
 
But we all have experienced that time in our lives when we meet someone and they seem so great yet they just don't seem to feel the same way. I happened to meet a guy awhile back and honestly I don't know him that well but I have interacted with him a couple of times and he seems like a great guy and one I would like to get to know but he clearly is not interested if he is not making a move. I gave him an opportunity to get to know me and he clearly didn't take the bait. I watch him go thru week long relationships then they end and I wonder what did you see in that person? Why did you pursue them? Why don't you want to pursue me?
 
A girl can only do so much to show she is interested but ultimately the guy will make a move if he is interested. As I have sat back and watched my brothers pursue their relationships with their wives I have noticed guys enjoy the chase. Guys enjoy showing you that you mean the world to them.
 
He is into you but you are not into him!
 
CAT LOVER!!!!!!!!!!
 
 

Do I really need to say more here? If you are confused about the above read http://www.blogger.com/blogger.g?blogID=4829182396584292183#editor/target=post;postID=3053767440605745847
But we have all met that person who thinks we are totally going to rock their socks but seriously there is no chemistry or connections! I think a lot of time people think you are single and I am single so we must be perfect for each other. But how can a relationship flourish is there is clearly no connection? If  there is no commonality at all? Why do people go for this? I have always wondered. You see it all the time in the movies where the guy or girl goes for someone way out of their league and when it happens you wonder if it could in reality but I can't seem to fall in love or lust or like or whatever with a 55 year old cat lover! Just Sayin!
 
Hes into you but NOT into you!
 
This is the scenario that I have fallen into way to often in my life. Hes into the IDEA of you but when it really comes down to making it work hes not into you the person! He likes the idea that you are a hard working educated person, good head on your shoulder, strong in what you believe in, love life and what it has to offer but if he has to look past that and put in effort himself it just ain't gonna happen on his end! Make a relationship work two-sided? really? well that's the dumbest thing he has ever heard of! lol He likes the idea that you are flirting with him and building his ego but if he has to make an effort to show hes interested as well, he backs down and bolts. He likes that you cook for him, look after his needs, let him in your life take control of it and get comfortable but then when you ask where is this relationship going he bolts without a another word! As long as I am the suga momma life is all sugary sweet but once I mention I have feelings and want more then being the suga momma he thinks "Crap, I have to grow up and make a decision and be a responsible adult well that's to hard so I'm going to cowardly run away" Or the all to common, "Wait! What? I just can't make out with you but have other relationships with other people? You sayin that's not cool? Or wait, I can't just have a physical relationship? You want me to develop true feelings? That's the most absurd thing I have heard!!!!"
 
Yes, I am  throwing lots of sarcasm into the above paragraph but those situations in one form or another has been replayed all to often. When I want commitment or respect or mutual give and take they bolt quicker then lightening and usually without saying another word! They just disappear and I am left looking dumbfounded with idiot posted to my forehead for falling for it once again:
 
Great Friendship BUT.......
 
This is a scenario that I think everyone comes across at some point in their lives before the mutualness actually collides. You are great friends, you are comfortable around each other, when others look at you they think O wow, look at their friendship they would make the most perfect couple, you make each other laugh at times BUT one of you just doesn't feel that spark, that drive, that desire to pursue the relationship farther then friendship! Please tell me you have been thru this???? There has been people in my life who will always have a special place in my heart for their friendship and for what they have taught me. I cherish their friendships because they have showed me what I want in a relationship one day but I want and I need that spark to make it go further. I can't bring myself to be in a loveless relationship! I have seen it all to often. I think what is painful in this situation is those on the outside who don't understand the need for spark and just see two great people and wonder what is wrong with you for not going for that person. For not jumping into a relationship and fulfilling your life long desire. Why do we meet people and become the greatest friends but the spark can't come? You are jealous to an extent of the person who will end up with them but beat yourself up wondering why it can't be you but knowing at the same time if you forced it you would be unhappy! Knowing its no fault of theirs and doing what you can to not break their heart.
 
Having broken a heart for not having the feelings but cherishing the amazing friendship I had with a person and having my heart broken for falling for someone who was into the idea of me but not really into me I think this is why I ponder these scenarios every once in awhile and wonder how to move past them. I never want to break another heart again or go thru another broken heart myself. Seeing the pain on his face and knowing how long it took me to get back on my feet after I watched someone walk out of my life without an explanation I don't tread on these scenarios lightly.
 
Finally the Totally Off Limits:

Maybe this person is out of our league! Maybe this person can't be in a relationship with you for multiple reasons! Maybe you met them for a reason but bottom line you just can't be together!  Maybe this scenario is a combination of the above and not a category of its own. But have you ever come across someone and think: I want to find someone like you someday? You totally connect with the person, you make each other laugh, and just by knowing them they make you want to be a better person? You have this total connection that you just can't put into words but there are multiple reasons why you just can't be in a relationship. This person totally rocks your world yet they can't fully. Are they put in your life just to be reminded that there are others out there like them but available in ways this person is not? Are they put in your life just to add that laugh and smile when you needed it the most? Or is it the other way around and you were actually the one put into their lives for a certain reason? But whatever the case maybe the bottom line is you connect with the person on multiple levels but for multiple reasons you just can't be together!
 
So I ask you, if you are reading this blog post to take a moment and contemplate then let me know what does it take to find someone who can fall into mutual weirdness together? How does one move out of the above scenarios? Or is it necessary to go thru all the above scenarios or can we avoid them? If you have fallen into mutual weirdness with someone and have called it love, tell me how it happened? I want to hear responses from you if you take a moment to read the blog post: Comment. I know many of you are past these scenarios or at one time were past them. What made it happen?
 
Looking forward to your responses and happy reading to all who take a moment to read the ramblings of my heart, mind and soul! :)